Not perfection...but I'll take it!

Goals for 7/22/15

100 oz water😓

82 oz of water

Morning walk before work ✔️

1.47 miles in 30 minutes burning 106 calories

Walk during morning break - inside😭

Swamped at work...no time for a break

Walk during afternoon break - inside😭

Swamped at work...no time for a break

At least 10,000 steps for the day ✔️

13,800 steps

Evening walk or trip to the gym✔️

Not a traditional walk...push mowed our yard...1.66 miles in 50 minutes burning 330 calories

Weighed in this morning at 202.7, down another .2. It was a pretty crazy day at work! I wasn't able to meet all of my goals...but hey I am not perfect...I have never claimed to be. If I wasn't, I would feel the need to be writing this blog each night to help keep myself accountable. 😜

It is 9:45pm & I have only had 60 oz of water...I just fixed another 22 oz of water, I am pretty sure I am gonna max out there...if I get it finished.

It was really hard to drag my exhausted booty out of bed this morning...but I did it! My walk this morning was pretty leisurely...my pace was terrible...but I did it...and that is all I care about.

By the way...most of you reading will love the visual of me finishing the yard tonight in the dark with a head lamp! 😂 I am sure it was a hilarious sight!!!!!!

Goals for 7/23/15

100 oz water

Morning walk before work

Walk during morning break

Walk during afternoon break

At least 10,000 steps for the day

*no time for an evening walk, we have band rehearsal 😜

Bug spray...new kicks...fat-old knees....

Today's Goals - 7/21/15:

64 oz water ✔️

126 oz of water today...I am floating!!!

Morning walk before work ✔️

2.28 miles in 38 min burning 190 calories

Walk during morning break ✔️

1.01 miles in 18 min burning 80 calories

Walk during afternoon break ✔️

.58 miles in 10 minutes burning 48 calories

At least 10,000 steps for the day ✔️

16,105 steps/8.15 miles

Evening walk or trip to the gym ✔️

1.02 miles in 19 minutes burning 76 calories

Yesterday is weighed 204.6#, today I weighed 202.9#! Down 1.7#

I really didn't want to get out of bed this morning...laid in bed about 15 minutes contemplating it...but the loss totally made it worth dragging my lazy butt out of bed. That loss helped motivated me throughout the day. That loss helped me crush my goals for the day!

While on my walk this morning I discovered 3 things:

1) I need to start wearing bug spray on my walks! Between the standing water in construction areas throughout my neighborhood & last night rain storm...the bugs were brutal!

2) I really need some new tennis shoes that are made for the purpose of walking/jogging. I have always just found the most inexpensive thing that fits...I really need something more supportive for my walks, so the hunt begins. If you have any shoe advice...I am totally on board!

3) I have fat-old knees!!! Yes I said it fat!!! I am very comfortable with that word. I have been fat for the majority of my life...from the chest down I still am!😜 I am convinced my weight over the years has done a number on my knees...not to mentioned the simple fact my body is aging. 

Numbers 2 & 3 became even more apparent on my gravel track walks at work today. I am not a fan of walking on gravel, nor am I a fan of the added sweat that occurs from walking outside in the brutal sun...in business casual attire!  Not gonna ack down from my goals, but I do believe I will move my break walks indoors to the treadmills in the workout room at work...maybe I will stink a little less by 4:30pm!

I really had to force myself to get in that last walk tonight...my legs felt like lead...and I had to drag myself up & down my street to get in that mile...but hey no pain no gain...right!

Sweating work selfie after my first break time walk!

Goals for tomorrow - 7/22/15

100 oz water

Morning walk before work

Walk during morning break - inside

Walk during afternoon break - inside

At least 10,000 steps for the day 

Evening walk or trip to the gym

Climbing back on the wagon...trying to stay motivated to stay there...

I have obviously known for a while that I was not progressing with my weight loss...I have decided many times over the last year that it was time to get my booty in gear! I would decide it was time & for "work week" I would do great...then would come the weekend & I would slip up...derailing my progress...get fed up & give up. At my highest weight I was 309#, I had WLS 9/12/11. At my lowest weight after WLS, I weighed 171#, that was 12/4/12. A year ago I weighed in at 188#...over the last year, I have done ALOT of fluctuating...but back in May I crossed back into the 200# part of the woods & it was so dark!!! I have honestly had an extremely hard time using my "tool" and seeing the light at the end of the weight loss tunnel. Honestly I am not sure there will ever be an end...even if/when I make it to my goal, I know I am always gonna have to fight like hell to stay there! 

Sometimes I honestly wonder if the fight is even worth it....everyday I get up thinking I am going to make better choices...then I get derailed again.

Well of course today was one of those days...I didn't get up early enough to go out for a walk before work...just couldn't drag my exhausted booty out of bed...but I was determined to have a good day anyway. While in the shower, my phone dinged with a text...my first thought was it would be work related...WRONG! It ended up being a text from my mom. She is probably gonna not be happy with me for sharing this...but after I got over being a little hurt by the text...I was able to see that her honesty was exactly what I needed! She may never know how much that text helped turn my attitude around. I have constantly been thinking the same things for a while...but hearing it from her was like being smacked int he back of the head...I guess you could say it woke me up!

So here is how my day went...finished getting ready for work, making sure I had my tennis shoes. Arrived at work and knocked out my reports by about 10:30am. Actually took my break at 10:30 (I only  take my break about once every couple of months) and headed out to our new gravel walking path. Man was it humid...but I was committed to a minimum of 15 minutes. At the fifteen minute mark I was just shy of 1 mile, so I took a short lap to finish my mile. 1.02 miles in 17:22min, burning 86 calories

I had meetings all afternoon so I wasn't able to take my second break for another walk, but that is my goal tomorrow.

After work, I came home and changed, then once Clay got home we went to the gym. We got on bike first. 5 miles in 25:55 min, burning 133 calories Next it was on to lower body strength training. 17 min, burning 90 calories

At this moment, I have logged 9,234 steps, but I will make sure that is topped off at a minimum of 10,000 steps before bed tonight.

I ate well today, nothing fried, breaded or with added sugar. I have a terrible time getting water in...if I don't count coffee which I shouldn't, I most days get none. I have had 22 oz today & I am working on my second 22 oz. tomorrow I am going to shoot for at least 64 oz. 

So goals for tomorrow 7/21/15:

64 oz water

Morning walk before work

Walk during morning break

Walk during afternoon break

At least 10,000 steps for the day

Evening walk or trip to the gym

Finished today with 52 oz of water & 11,181 steps.

2 things I learned...

I learned two very important things tonight during my first C25K session. 

1) I do NOT know how to breathe properly while running!!!! (During the running while surfing the internet is also not the best time to try & figure it out!)

2) Given that I do NOT know how to properly breathe while running, attempting my first C25K session might not have been the smartest thing to do while still healing from a sinus infection!

I think I did pretty well for my first time. I didn't run the full 60 seconds everytime, but I didn't quit. On the last four running times, I started walking 10-15 seconds early. Next time I will try again!

Throughout this C25K session I of course got overheated, so I started shedding the layers of tops I had on. The first being a light weight poly long sleeve shirt. Then I got to the point where I even felt like I wa suffocating in my tank top (I fingure this was due to the whole not being able to breathe thing) so I shed the tank top too & ended up running in a sports bra & work out pants!!! Thank God we were in the dark movie room or I woul have NEVER been comfortable enough to do that!!! As soon as I finished my C25K session, Clay looked at me & laughed telling me to put my shirt on...I was letting all my awesomeness out!!! I had to laugh!!!

Oh well lessons learned!!! Night everyone!!!

Is Something Chasing Me...

I have often said, "I don't run!" I hate to run...heck I am not even a jogger!!! The only time anyone has even seen me jog on the treadmill at the gym is if I am ready to get off the darn thing & I can finish the last quarter of the mile I am on in 30-45 seconds (cause lord knows that I can't jog/run any longer than that!) I have been told many times by people that love to run that they once hated it too...I truly think they were closet runners all along!

I do like to participate in the occasional 5k, but only as a walker. However when I I have done them there is that tiny competitive side of me that is a little jealous of those that can actually compete for the prizes because they ran. On more than one occasion I have downloaded a C25K app on my phone thinking I would give it the ol' heave ho try. Only once did I actually give one of the sessions a try & I didn't finish it! I know "total loser"! Lol!!!

Well I have gone & downloaded it again. We are heading to the gym tonight & I am gone do this week 1/day 1 run if it kills me! Wish me luck!!!

Biggest Loser...

My favorite show is Biggest Loser...it has always inspired me! This season however I have been so busy that I was 5 episodes behind at season finale time...that has NEVER happened. I honestly didn't even realize this was finale week! Wow!!!

Obviously I know who the winner is & I was just as shocked with her drastic weightloss as many others have been. So now I am trying to catch up on the episodes to see how she got there. As I watched episode 11 tonight on Hulu & saw Rachel weigh in at 161 lbs...I can't even begin to imagine how she gets to 105 lbs. I have been stuck in the 175-185 range for over a year! Granted I have NOT been working hard at losing the last of my weight...I have simply been enjoying the new me! 

I don't ever want to weigh 105 lbs, but what I wouldn't give to see Rachel's 161 lbs from episode 11 on my scale! Clay & I have rejoined the gym. Right now we are getting there about 3 days a week, but I need to do better. It is time to recommit &  get goal oriented again. Maybe I'll see 161 soon!!!

I hesitate...but trying to make myself accountable....

Haven't stuck to my goal since my last post on 9/11. I am actually 3 lbs up from then. No one to blame but myself!

It is funny...when I tell people I still need to lose about 30 lbs they always gasp then laugh & either ask me where I plan to lose another 30 lbs or they tell me I will  blow away if I lose another 30 lbs.

I know these people are trying to be supportive when they say these things, but they really don't realize just how destructive those comments can be. They give me permission to be complacent...to not follow my plan & eat things I shouldn't. Then before I know it I am up 3 lbs making my new goal 35 lbs left to lose. 

Then I see a friend at work who had her WLS this summer & is doing amazing, I see a post from my cousin on FB with updates from her WLS (she is down 75 lbs), another post from a cyber friend on FB who had her WLS 3 months after me modeling her new size 6 clothes, & then a phone call from a previous co-worker who will have her WLS next week asking for my advice & what to expect after she wakes up from surgery...little do they know how much they inspire me!!!

I had a good lifestyle day yesterday & today I walk into work armed with a water bottle, lean protein, & clean socks to don so I can walk on my breaks today. Here I go again...thanks for the inspirational kick in the butt guys!