Climbing back on the wagon...trying to stay motivated to stay there...

I have obviously known for a while that I was not progressing with my weight loss...I have decided many times over the last year that it was time to get my booty in gear! I would decide it was time & for "work week" I would do great...then would come the weekend & I would slip up...derailing my progress...get fed up & give up. At my highest weight I was 309#, I had WLS 9/12/11. At my lowest weight after WLS, I weighed 171#, that was 12/4/12. A year ago I weighed in at 188#...over the last year, I have done ALOT of fluctuating...but back in May I crossed back into the 200# part of the woods & it was so dark!!! I have honestly had an extremely hard time using my "tool" and seeing the light at the end of the weight loss tunnel. Honestly I am not sure there will ever be an end...even if/when I make it to my goal, I know I am always gonna have to fight like hell to stay there! 

Sometimes I honestly wonder if the fight is even worth it....everyday I get up thinking I am going to make better choices...then I get derailed again.

Well of course today was one of those days...I didn't get up early enough to go out for a walk before work...just couldn't drag my exhausted booty out of bed...but I was determined to have a good day anyway. While in the shower, my phone dinged with a text...my first thought was it would be work related...WRONG! It ended up being a text from my mom. She is probably gonna not be happy with me for sharing this...but after I got over being a little hurt by the text...I was able to see that her honesty was exactly what I needed! She may never know how much that text helped turn my attitude around. I have constantly been thinking the same things for a while...but hearing it from her was like being smacked int he back of the head...I guess you could say it woke me up!

So here is how my day went...finished getting ready for work, making sure I had my tennis shoes. Arrived at work and knocked out my reports by about 10:30am. Actually took my break at 10:30 (I only  take my break about once every couple of months) and headed out to our new gravel walking path. Man was it humid...but I was committed to a minimum of 15 minutes. At the fifteen minute mark I was just shy of 1 mile, so I took a short lap to finish my mile. 1.02 miles in 17:22min, burning 86 calories

I had meetings all afternoon so I wasn't able to take my second break for another walk, but that is my goal tomorrow.

After work, I came home and changed, then once Clay got home we went to the gym. We got on bike first. 5 miles in 25:55 min, burning 133 calories Next it was on to lower body strength training. 17 min, burning 90 calories

At this moment, I have logged 9,234 steps, but I will make sure that is topped off at a minimum of 10,000 steps before bed tonight.

I ate well today, nothing fried, breaded or with added sugar. I have a terrible time getting water in...if I don't count coffee which I shouldn't, I most days get none. I have had 22 oz today & I am working on my second 22 oz. tomorrow I am going to shoot for at least 64 oz. 

So goals for tomorrow 7/21/15:

64 oz water

Morning walk before work

Walk during morning break

Walk during afternoon break

At least 10,000 steps for the day

Evening walk or trip to the gym

Finished today with 52 oz of water & 11,181 steps.